The Idiot’s guide to Idiocy

I can’t take it anymore!!! Stuck in limbo sucks. There’s just no other way to describe it. Like waiting for the results of a test. Or if you’ve scored that job interview. Or waiting for that special someone you’ve had your eye on to finally acknowledge your feelings. The waiting….

Waiting isn’t so bad if there’s an end in sight. But what if there’s no end to your wait? What if creation itself conspires to keep you waiting for all eternity? What’s the point in doing anything if you’re just going to end up waiting for an answer or a result that just doesn’t want to appear? Don’t give me that crap about getting off my own ass and doing something about it, that only goes so far. At some point or other your fate is not your own. Yes, when you take a test you’re using your own wits to overcome it. What happens after? Aye, more waiting. You’ve done all you can so all you can do now is wait.

Sadly, waiting is a constant occurrence in my life. Yeah yeah, some of you are saying right now, don’t just wait, go out and look. BAH! While looking you’re still waiting aren’t you? Waiting to find what you’re looking for. There is hope though. I feel… as if all my waiting is finally coming to an end. Not a happy ending, not a bad one either. Just the feeling finality. Maybe, just maybe my wait has come to an end. I highly doubt that. Everyone waits for something. Fate just likes to keep me waiting longer that everyone else.

And so I wait. For change. For fulfillment. For happiness.

If those things don’t exist for me so be it, I’ll wait for Death.

HURRY THE FUCK UP ASSHOLE!

Aye, why do people care? Does it give them satisfaction? Or is it something more sinister? Why do people ask if you’re alright? Is it a ploy to get you to think they’re your ‘friends’?

It’s a well know fact that humans are selfish, more so now than at any other point in history. So I ask again, why? At the end of the day people only do things for their own benefit. This is fact. I mean, why don’t people go to movies alone? Because it’s a boring experience unless you have someone to share it with. So you invite other people. You’re not trying to be nice, you’re just fulfilling a selfish need not to be alone. Just like asking someone to go to the mamak with you. It’d be a pretty quick ‘yamcha’ session if you’re alone. At least with someone else there you can kill more time.

Selfish, but well hidden by good intentions. Nothing but political BS. I only have one reply to fake inquiries about my well being: I don’t care, why should you?